Push Through

It is very deceiving outside. The sun is shining but the high is somewhere close to 40 degrees. Still, spring fever has set in and pushing through to finish up homeschool is getting very hard. The kids want to play outside. Spring weather is very promising for the end of the week. Maybe, by Easter it will be nice.

This was our first full year of homeschooling. I have to admit, I have been a very reluctant homeschooler. Hoping and believing they would all be back in school next year. By early January I had the school picked out and everything. I was already visualizing a clean house and caught up laundry. Then the bubble burst. I prayed about it. I mean really prayed about it. I knew in my gut we were supposed to do one more year.

I had had a few conversations with people that went something like this prior to prayer...

"You, homeschool? Oh, I could never do that. You must really enjoy it. I mean that is really a calling. How many kids do you have?"

My reply....

"No, actually I don't enjoy it." (If I'm anything, it's honest.) "We are NOT going to be doing this next year. I've found a great school for us that is going to be the perfect fit. I'm not like most other homeschool moms that love it. It was just for this year."

Just as the weather is deceiving us today I too had deceived myself into believing what I wanted was best for all of us. Instead God's best is what we needed for each of us. It was a pretty amazing thing though, I received such a peace after the decision was made to go one more year. (I can only think that far ahead.) The house can wait. I've witnessed that this year. However, growing children do not.

So, I'm going to push on through to summer and then wade into next fall. Who knows maybe by then I'll be a full fledged homeschool convert.